Just keep Praying, Just keep Submitting

As time goes on the more I (James) gets frustrated with the adoption process but then I look to my faithful, loving, supportive wife and with her strength I realize that I need to have patients and that God has the right family in mind of us in his time. It is just so hard to keep seeing these families of children that need a loving home and thinking this is the one they are a prefect match for us. So we submit our home study and sometimes take months of hearing nothing then all of a sudden hear they have been placed and we were not even talked to. Or they look at our home study see we are not currently in the US and say no way. Then there are those sibling groups on an national adoption website so we submit our home study and then they say "Oh we are looking for a family that is living in this state," and all I want to say is well if that is the case then do not put them on a national website of state that flat out in the child presentation.

With all that being said we are staying strong and loving on our birth boys while remaining busy with life. WE just keep praying for God to bring forward the family he has chosen for us, and just keep submitting our home study for more groups hoping that this next one will be the group so that our hearts will stop breaking just a little more with each disappointment.

I never imagined that with so many children in foster care and looking for loving homes that we would be a year and a half into this and still not have the prospect of new children become a part of the family soon.
I will just keep praying and trusting the Lord.

Thank you everyone for the love and support you show.

A Flawed System...

Let me start first by saying that we believe the foster care system is trying to do what is best for the children in foster care, but it seems to us that they are making this process more difficult than it has to be.  First, some social workers will not even consider us for children because we do not live in the United States at this exact moment.  What I fail to see is how the US is so much better than other places.  The US has no problem with its citizens adopting children from other countries and bringing them into the US, but the other way around is not acceptable. We are US citizens and we will be back in the US in 7 months.  We want our children to experience this with us and we would love any children we got.  It is incredibly frustrating that because we are not living in the US currently we  are not even considered for many children. 

Secondly, and maybe even more frustrating, is the fact that they have created these permanency committees.  Don't get me wrong I think this could be a very good thing.  However, what has been explained to us is that the people who make up these committees often have not spoken to any of the families being considered for adopting the children.  I keep wondering how they can make the best decision for the children when they don't know the possibilities and they also don't know the children?  I want these children to get the best home possible not the closest one.  My heart breaks for the children that are not able to find the best home for them. It seems that there are so many ways that these children get the short end of the stick.  I just want them to be cared for. 

The only thing that keeps me going is that I know my God is bigger than all of this.  When he finds the right children for our family there is nothing and no one that will be able to stop Him from getting those children to us.  I am trying my best to be patient as I know this is the path God has called me to go down.  But, I can't decide what to do with my wonderful husband.  He finds these children and he gets so attached to them.  It is so difficult to see these children needing a loving home and not get attached to them.  James gets attached every time.  It is hard for him to see that the right children will come to us.  He wants his children and he wants them now.  I know how he feels and at times I feel so frustrated, but I will just keep going until my children find me. 

Again- thank you all for your support and love you have shown us.  We are glad to have each of you in our lives and we will continue to pray for our children.